For the Love of Savanna

Happy 5 month old birthday Savanna. I can’t wait to get your update and pictures around the 20th of this month.

Well, your ‘ol mom went right over the edge yesterday. She got what would have been a nice letter from Kerry at the adoption agency except she mentioned my “case being right on track” and that I could expect to “pick you up between Feb. and April”. Well, I lost it. I cried, and cried. I sent a letter to Kerry and the director of the agency. It wasn’t very nice but it did state my feelings. I should have talked to your Granny before I sent the email as she is a voice of reason and can calm my most turbulent storms.

The director said she would call me later this week after reviewing my file. She alluded to my not being behind schedule. I think being in PGN for 43 days is behind schedule. (If you substract 10 for the holidays, I’ve still been in PGN for 33 days). I know the paperwork hasn’t been “kicked out” and I’m “near the end”, but how much longer is it going to take?! I really wish I knew specific information about what is taking so long. Did my case get lost? Is the attorney really doing all that she can? (I was told that she is).

I haven’t slept well the past two nights and now have a migraine. All I want to do is bring you home so we can start our lives together. My heart aches to be with you.

This has got to be the most frustrating experience I’ve ever had and with so much at stake.

Savanna, I hope you will never doubt my love for you.

Love,

Your cranky Mom

**Pray that I get out of PGN this week**